One building, two perceptions

1. The revolving doors swallow and expel: people go in, people come out. They are oblivious to the gorging/disgorging action the doors mimic. They all seem to have so much purpose, so much direction in their gait. Just above the endlessly-twisting turnstiles the windows start, great soulless eyes that stare out on the street below, spattered with rain, tracking the soot and dust of city grime like tears on a child’s face. The windows go on forever; the building rises upward, almost featureless, like a slab of granite ready to be cut for a tombstone. Whose names will be inscribed here? Do the people appearing like ants when viewed from the upper storeys think about those blank, lidless eyes as they scurry to and fro? Probably not. They have only the thoughts they think in their individual heads, those heads bowed against the rain or protected by umbrellas. I wonder about their own private sorrows, the disappointments of their lives, if they are so different one from the other. The one in the gray overcoat with the fedora, what darkness lurks in his heart and mind? The woman walking the other way with the yellow umbrella seems out of place in this dreary environment. I ride the elevator upwards and downwards in this stele-like hive of glass and steel and marble. My fellow passengers do not converse, there is an unspoken law of unspeaking. They do not make eye contact. The silence is almost funerary. The only relief is the young man next to me with the bouquet of flowers, their brightness an afront to the subdued colours of this place. It is good to be on the main floor, hard polished granite underfoot, and regurgitated through that revolving maw into the dreary rain outside.

2. This is the place, the temple, so to speak, where I bring my offering of posies. It is raining when I arrive and people are scurrying in and out through the revolving doors, pulling up collars, jamming hats on more firmly or unfurling umbrellas. If you throw your vision out of focus, it seems like a show of swirling colours, patternless but always moving in the same direction. The building is very tall and huge glass windows cover all sides. They throw back myriad reflections and still glint and sparkle in the rain. They are tinted gold and seem to glow with their own light. Perhaps they do. In the elevator there is a feeling of cameraderie as we nod and smile at strangers. Only the old man next to me seems lost and out of touch with the humanity around him. But he is soon gone and I admire the spacious lobby with the polished granite floors, sparkling where dayight glances off flecks of quartz in their matrix. People bustle about continuously, calling, greeting. I am overwhelmed with the sense of the place, of community. As I emerge I look up and notice a patch of blue through the overcast. Soon there will be sunshine and the building will shine like a golden box of delights.